Why is it so difficult to let go off the past? each one knows that past will never come back yet he strongly clinches on to it, in the hope of getting the happiness he would have got once in life. The pains of a strained or a broken relationship continue to haunt one's present despite the fact that those moments of break up would have been the worst times of his/her life. Even when a person finds solace in a new person, he/she unconsciously tries to search the likes of his lost love in that. Why does time take so much time to heal the wounds of the past.Time does heal everything. May be in the long run it might make the person immune or numb to those pains. If only the person can stop chasing the shadows of the past and move on, things would roll smoothly again. But is it not difficult to hate the person you have loved more than yourself once. And is it not difficult to see the person you had been possessive about having a good and happy life with someone else. There are so many whys yet so few  answers. If only life had been favorable enough not to make one fall in a wrong relationship or may be meet the wrong person. But they say you meet all the wrong persons so that you can appreciate the gift that you receive when you meet the right one. I find all this to be rather difficult to comprehend because only the one who suffers knows the real pains he/she goes through.

For a life of a day

A small little insect

On a hot sultry noon

Makes it way

Out of its cosy cocoon.

Slides on the green leaf

Dotted with a drop of dew

The little one awaits changes

Unknown and new.

Then comes the dull moth

For its moments of struggle

To turn into a a butterfly

All the time it wriggles.

Brightly colored butterfly

Flies, happy and gay

Surpasses all the struggles

To live life of a day.

© Shibi Varghese, 2010

Today while browsing through the television channels, I paused and was happy to see one of my favorite movies ever "Anand" ( which means happiness in Hindi). Its a story of a person Anand who is suffering from lyphmo-sarcoma or cancer and is at the terminal stage of the disease. Though I have seen the movie an umpteen number of times, I was touched by its message in a unique way today. 

Though Anand is counting his days of life, yet he lives every moment whole-heartedly. He talks a lot, laughs a lot, cracks jokes, makes friends with strangers. No one who meets him for the first time can guess that he is suffering from such a dreadful disease and has days which are numbered. Though an orphan, he finds new meaningful relationships during his final journey, relationships which are not due to his lineage yet everlasting and true.

Watching the movie I just pondered on my own life. There have been so many moments when I would have just selfishly thought about myself, seeked attention from everyone around. Never thinking that some one else might be having grave problems and compared to them my life is just so easy. There would have moments when I would have missed to tell some one I love them, what they mean to me and would have ungratefully forgotten to thank some one for their help. The moments that would have been the best moments of my life would have just gone unnoticed because I was busy searching for some happiness which was not there. 

Not every smile is a happy one..but a few smiles might be surpassing the tears within them. How much happy each one of us could be, if only we would try to cherish the present than running behind things that are far away or cry over things which have become the past. Life is for once...it does not matter how long it is but it does matter how beautiful every moment in it can be. The best way is to find beauty in everything. If only one can light up others life and bring a smile on others face..the journey of life would be one to be cherished.

Dawn

Ray of light
Makes its way
Everything s shining
Like the golden hay.

Green leaves gleam
Like a shiny droplet
Chirping of birds
Resounds as sounds of trinkets.

The bright gay sun
comes out of hiding
Its a bright  new day
Joys come gliding.

Night was long
But now its gone
Innumerable promises and hopes
Its a sign of dawn.

Break all shackles
Its time to be free
Forget all worries
Its time to be glee.

Bid adieu and wave goodbye
To all weakness, ill will and greed
Dawn beckons with new challenges
Get ready, its time to succeed.

©Shibi Varghese, 2010

FRIENDsssss

When life had turned bleak

and nothing seemed right

You became my hope

my courage and my might.

Life with its mundaness

had become banal and trite

You made me walk and said

Come on buddy its all right.

You were always besides

and wiped away my tears

had it not been you

I would have given up to my fears.

The road was never straight

Had all its curves and bents

God send you as special angels

And told me to call you "Friends".

© Shibi Varghese, 2010